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Breathing Again

Filed under: Blogfriends,Rats! — folkcat at 1:05 pm on Monday, August 20, 2007

What a week we had last week. Let me start by saying how very grateful both Gryphon and I were for the massive outpouring of sympathy, condolences, virtual hugs, and love you all sent in comments and e-mail. I didn’t even try to answer anyone until today, but I think I’ve gotten all the individual responses out now. My sincere apologies if I’ve overlooked someone.

I couldn’t help but think, as I saw your comments come in, back to the days when I used to work in offices. I can’t imagine the kind of co-workers I had in those gruntwork data-entry places understanding what Star’s loss meant to us at all. “It was just a rat, for crissakes! Get ovah it!” I am so glad that I don’t have to deal with that sort of clueless person anymore.

No, instead, I have my blog, and I have you, my wonderful blog friends, who rose to the occasion brilliantly with a full understanding of how even a rat can touch our hearts, and rip a little piece away with them when they leave us.

Tuesday was a day that was already so over-full of errands, doctor’s appointments, and other urgent matters, that I even had to ask a friend stay at my house most of the day to receive a package that required a signature. On top of that, when we went to bed on Monday night, we had decided that Star was having too much difficulty feeding herself, and getting about, and that it was time.

The veterinarian was able to fit us in on her lunch hour on Tuesday. She assessed Star’s condition and agreed that we were making the right decision for her, reassuring us in our choice. Gryphon and I cradled Star in our hands. It was over quickly.

We curled Star, as if sleeping, in a fabric travel water bowl for pets that the girls loved snoozing in, along with a couple of her well-chewed plastic frogs, and a whole walnut. Having no outdoor space of our own, a good friend allowed us to bury Star in a small patch of trees in her backyard.

I was shocked by how much losing Star impacted me. I’ve lost pets before, but apparently rats have touched my heart in a way that dogs and cats, as much as I loved them, never could. It’s taken until today before I felt I could get a grip, get my focus back, and try to move on.

As for Sable and Lola, we feel blessed that Lola came into our lives when she did. Sable, while she clearly understands that Star is gone, has made a good transition, having Lola there already to sleep with. And I think this photo I took last Monday shows that she’s accepted Lola as a grooming partner.

Sable grooming Lola

Yes, it’s been submitted to the most excellent blog, LOLRats. Don’t know if they’ll post it, but at least you get to see it here. If you like cute pictures of ratties, do click through to LOLRats and browse the photos there, you’ll have a good laugh!

Thank you for riding through the blog silence of the past week with me. I’m back now, and actually have some different sorts of things to offer you this week. It’s going to be a Reviews Week, I guess, since I’ve recently been sent a backpack to look over (goodness knows how I get on these lists!), and even a couple of knitting books to talk about. I’m thinking there might even be a give-away posted by next weekend. Oh, and I did some knitting last week, in spite of my funk, so you’ll get to see the latest pair of finished socks. As soon as I’ve finished them, that is, but I’m only two rows away from binding off …

Stay tuned, it should be interesting!

4 Comments

Comment by sarebear

August 20, 2007 @ 2:32 pm

That picture is so cuuuuuuute!!!! i can has giggles!

I’m browsing lolrats now, thanks for that link!

Comment by sarebear

August 20, 2007 @ 3:04 pm

Anyone who likes to smile/grin, go to lolrats . . . .

Currently roflmaopimp-ing at Behold! I iz your new god!

I think the Lord would be having a nice little giggle at this one, too . . . he created us, rats, and a sense of humor. So he’s got a sense of humor too. Some might not appreciate this one, but I just can’t stop giggling at the sheer silliness . . . if you know me, you know I’m SILLY!

Comment by Carol

August 21, 2007 @ 1:07 pm

Good to see the new Ratties are getting along. If tickling each other counts as getting along… Yeah, I’ve met people who have said insensitive things about the death of a pet. Clearly they don’t realize the furry is a part of the family. Boneheads.

Comment by Elspeth

August 21, 2007 @ 1:16 pm

That reminds me of when we took my cat to have her put to sleep. She had tumors that were so obvious by this time but it was still so hard to do. I hope she is in a better place now with Star.

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