Tremulous Tuesday

I'm having one of those days. I woke up feeling unrested, though I could swear I slept. It's taking me forever to feel like I can deal with the world. And I have a vulnerable and shaky feeling as though I just woke from a nightmare that I don't remember having - nearly four hours after waking up.

This is the sort of day that I'll sit and do nothing but watch episode after episode of The People's Court on the Tivo. Only People's Court has been in re-runs for several weeks, and I have none to watch. Maybe I can make do with Cosby, Full House, Golden Girls, and Bewitched from the Tivo's Suggestions recordings. Those feel like comfort food television.

It's a little difficult to relax so far because Gryphon is doing his usual Craft Circle Tuesday cleaning blitz. Days like this, the endless barrage of fussy little noises as he putters about makes my skin crawl. There's not much for it but to endure until he leaves for work, though. Once he goes, I can make the house as quiet as I need.

It is, in fact, Craft Circle Tuesday, which means that later on my friends will be arriving for our weekly crafting and hanging out. But that's okay - it's a low-key gathering that's been going on for years, and they don't have any expectations of grand service or spotless house when they show up. And I'll have an opportunity for a couple of hours of complete control over the noise levels in the house before they get here.

Not sure what there will be to report for knitting tomorrow, but we'll see.

I'll be okay. These things always pass. It's just so hard while they're here. Thank ghu that I have Gryphon - he always understands and does what he can to help.

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